Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Somewhere...Somethings

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

The thought has been feeling arbitrary for some time.
Absurd!
At times…Thoughtless. Always won’t stand wrong either.

Whenever this thought observes me at peace it finds an inability to form something.
It finds a blank, it stops to notice and then it gets confirmed that it’s a blank. And whenever it stops I am lost. I am lost even when I don’t stop.
Seems to me a destination of some kind.
There has been restlessness for a time so long and it feels I am getting immune to it. Rather it doesn't feel anything.

I seek answers but I don’t strive for them.
Tends towards never!
Letting things happen to you doesn't seem such a good idea. The moment again is so instantaneous.
I feel nowhere. Delayed!

I search for places… People too!
I don’t know why I search these. I have a hope that answers may be there however.
I select and it comes out to be so wrong.
Has been some time… feels like going somewhere.
Going away!
Somewhere.

Saturday, September 10, 2011

That what you said last December...were that You?

Saturday, September 10, 2011
"Its here"
Whatever you have come across, read around, found within and elsewhere,
the heavens and the hell - whatever they are; they are all here!

"Someone else spoke this to me through my friend; as i still think sometimes."
It wasn't usual to have a discussion of that kind among us otherwise. We usually are people with fun being the only stuff to get together. That wise getting serious is not so much of a happening stuff anytime; although that night, sometimes mid-December, someplace at Park Street, a chilly winter with the night crawling like a black creepy reptile and the thin needles of mild frost piercing it and forcing it take longer than usual to get done with.

While sitting behind my biker friend i was kind of preoccupied for obvious reasons that by the time we would be at Tollygunge, i must have gone stone and that thin blanket back at home wasn't probably gonna help anymore; no matter even it was set on fire!

"Hey Buddy! Look! Look at that one there! God!"
and the bike went down a few shifts of gears, a huge deceleration and the wheels roughed the roads as if a slave dragged by some harsh master.

And we saw a person almost in no clothes when we were in jackets- shivering; saw him holding big sheets of plastics those to shade customers in those book and magazine outlets. He lit those bits of paper and dry leaves which he collected all evening.

What was about to burn longer thereafter; was what I was already thinking by now. "what would be it my friend, those bits of paper or that hope of his that those will last the whole night? "

"...don't you think we are blessed of some kind; we got no debts to clear, we buy whatever we find, and that person there- It's unfair isn't it"


Meanwhile another person came selling mouth freshening chewing gums, asked us to buy a few as it would be useful someday if not now, as for him he couldn't sell a single of those the entire day.
"Take one Sir; ten bucks only. Use it another day. Didn't sell a single today."

I wasn't out of the last one and this came up too.

And then an angel called up to say she loves me.

I saw i couldn't get rid of the seriousness everywhere; and my eyes raised themselves to my friend. It seemed he had been thinking similar and this is what I heard...

"Its all here my friend, whatever we think of is to happen after death is what actually is happening in front of our not-noticing eyes"
"Truth is here"
"He is what he has done before, you are what you had done before"
"Nothings about to happen... its all simply happening"
"Deeds...all deeds."

I didn't utter a word thereafter. I felt a dead silence warming up my spine against whatever was taking it away before. My ears touched something heavenly for sure.

'That what you just spoke my friend was not you speaking it, I know. Someone else did that in your voice. Or were it you?'

I still sleep some of my nights thinking of those.

Friday, April 29, 2011

A letter of love

Friday, April 29, 2011
Far of at borders; what a soldier feels looking at his wallet..
Years of patience held by a traveler with that portrait of home in senses..

Even those staring at office clock
so that it ticks to the hour when you get back..

They all speak the same...

I too have that old feeling
yet again so new

and oh' my dear
on your birthday
I'm missing you

Maybe to wish a greet
but sure to say that I love you

Thursday, July 1, 2010

that day was 28th when the clock struck past five

Thursday, July 1, 2010
Every evening will have a sunset; for years to come
And thousands of dusks ahead will be golden and beautiful…
Every month will have a twenty eighth
And the coming would veil yet again a lot in itself
Everyday sometime; the clock sets past five
Yet …
A few of them
are remembered…
in dreams and in realities
and in real dreams and dreamed realities


“they will be past ...but won't die...just for a while be lost...
their souls will be air which forever blows”


And then…
someday again;

the instances will dissolve
the dribs of time will sprinkle…
True lovers will kiss
And hear a clock nearby pour to them those moments
That had happened
Sometimes past five
Someday when it was twenty eighth
And an evening will suddenly be beautiful for a while
Few words would be sweeter as never before
A promise would be made
A hug would be accepted...

The dusk will whisper the voice of a blown breeze


“But the sun would set even that day …”

Thursday, May 13, 2010

lots left...Still

Thursday, May 13, 2010
whenever i go home and switch on my laptop i wonder sometimes why is it taking so long to get wirelessly connected..... its then i realise... "gosh m on holiday.."

today i sit with my laptop..... exactly similarly as i did on the day i got it from college.......

everything's same...

even the colors on the wall..... the curtain... that walk on the hostel exit slope....
those sitting beside the library fences....

the department profs... their bikes...some cars...those classes
those evening coffee time....

the unusual singers in bathroom..... singing really bad... but made memories

those " tuney assignment kiya..."
"kal kiska class hai.."

"tu de raha hai midsem..."

those sense of pride in sleeping peacefully in spite of short attendance....

someone just told me we became engineers

someone else said its over....... but i still save the admit card to my last semester...

i got a feeling..... that lots left....... STILL

it can be... isnt it.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

to eVerYoNe

Tuesday, June 23, 2009
its an occasion.

this world without reason is celebrating a Century of visits today.
and on this very day, with some ten so called posts

the blog suddenly went so cool.

A list of acknowledgments all in a go.....
to my friend Paul (http://garbageidea.wordpress.com/) for endowing it with the present look along with the additional attribute, in inspiration to the Google Blackle (http://www.blackle.com/) "the energy saving search".
Almost every fascinating feature on the blog belongs to net-pro-paul

to
my avid critic Phoenix,
my intimate readers and friends out there in the comment section..
to the silent readers from Cu Kiit and Bhu

to the message the world is about to realise...
"that nothing ever happens for some reason whatsoever...it Just happens"

aNd

to the diffidently but accepted and the only truthful existence of - "ChaoS"

"its a toast"

it happened...
and its still happening

hail the world where we seek no reasons

Sunday, June 21, 2009

The e-mail story

Sunday, June 21, 2009
may Humour prevail.......

Last few days i was really kind of pre-occupied with something i consider my
life worth doing; and wow what a quality time i had reviewing the works of the
greatest of all scientists Dr.Sir C.V.Raman;
precise to some few areas in spectroscopy involved with whole new tribe of
materials known as Smart Materials.

Meeting people from different parts of country, oh yes! a few outsiders too ,
Increasing the numbers on my gtalk,orkut and facebook list........
chatTing unprofessionally and ofcourse professionally most of those times.

In my job one fine day I was asked to collect some information from random
google search [which you know isn't so easy unless you have a friend like the
one i have.....the Net-Pro-Paul.(meet him on http://garbageidea.wordpress.com/)]


And since i had no good reasons straining my eyes 'doing my job myself'
i decided to mail some people at the Raman Research Institute(rri)

...and heck; i had a sequence of emails in this process and those days involved
within forming itself into a story;so well in itself........ that i thought
i should bring it before you...

let me share the raw fun............i ain't editing nothing!!
(okay...okay...i'will bold out the fun lines considering your sense of humour)


1st mail : story begins
_______________________

from binnygoswami@gmail.com
to alpana@rri.res.in,antara@rri.res.in,
archana@rri.res.in,deepak@rri.res.in,chandra@rri.res.in
date Fri, Jun 5, 2009 at 12:07 AM
subject hi
mailed-by gmail.com

hi,
i am presently working as a summer intern at IISER-kolkata, studying
and reviewing RAMAN spectroscopy.
could you please help me with a list of liquid and/or gas
samples(atleast 20) which come out to give best details for the basic
experiment of RAMAN spectroscopy in which a monochromatic light is
passed thru the sample (i need to know) and then the spectrum being
studied in spectrometer.
regards.
__________________________

"meanwhile my fellow engineer friend, Paul was online and i just told him
the same.i swear in that particular moment he was like "what??...spectro
...why the hell are you up with it!"(he made sense as we are into mechanical
engineering.....)
"

but

then in the next 2 minutes to go,he also came up with some three or four
pdf files with a hell large collection of the matter i was exactly concerned.

"there's something very special in you if your destiny has assigned you
into engineering


i'll tell you what!!.....just go till the end.
___________________________

2 days after....

from deepak@rri.res.in
to binnygoswami@gmail.com
date Sun, Jun 7, 2009 at 1:20 PM
subject Re: hi
mailed-by rri.res.in

Hi Friend,
Actually, I don't work in Raman Spectroscopy at all. But I can
tell u e-mail ID of some person to whom u can contact.
suchandsandeep@gmail.com

Deepak
___________________________


some 9 hrs later....

from binnygoswami@gmail.com
to deepak@rri.res.in
date Sun, Jun 7, 2009 at 10:17 PM
subject Re: hi
mailed-by gmail.com


heyy........
thanks a lot deepak.
______________________________


in some quick 3 minutes thereafter......

from binnygoswami@gmail.com
to suchandsandeep@gmail.com
date Sun, Jun 7, 2009 at 10:20 PM
subject hi
mailed-by gmail.com
hi,
i am presently working as a summer intern at IISER-kolkata, studying
and reviewing RAMAN spectroscopy.
could you please help me with a list of liquid and/or gas
samples(atleast 20) which come out to give best details for the basic
experiment of RAMAN spectroscopy in which a monochromatic light is
passed thru the sample (i need to know) and then the spectrum being
studied in spectrometer.
regards.
_________________________________


3 days after....
(and all the fun lies here in this mail.......just attend the lines i
did make it quite noticable.....)

from suchandsandeep@gmail.com
to binnygoswami@gmail.com
date Wed, Jun 10, 2009 at 11:16 PM
subject Re: hi
mailed-by gmail.com
Hi Friend,

We are not really working on Raman spectroscopy at the Raman Research
Institute (what an irony!).

You can probably contact some of the
students of Prof. A.K.Sood at IISc who routinely work on Raman
spectroscopy. If you are looking for SERS, then you can contact
students of Prof. Chandrabhas at JNCASR.
Off hand, most of the organic solvents show characteristic Raman
lines, like Acetone, Ethanol, methanol, benzene, etc etc. Water, CS2
etc are other inorganic solvents wuth known Raman lines.

On the gas side, most of the diatomic molecules like h2, N2 etc
have known Raman lines.

Best Regards,
Sandeep.


the irony part....fancy that
______________________________________________


amongst all these mails the one liner; that irony from sandeep made me
laugh a bit on how things can be like; i mean you search out something somewhere and find it lying with someone else...and yes luckily no one's to be blamed...as no one is wrong.....

this post isn't an offense to any of the person involved above......please don't
misinterpret me.it does actually intends to bring out the fact how humorous a person
can still be remaining in such quality ranks busy doing such quality works all time and how things can line up forming a story which you always like to share with your pals......i mean having the whole bunch of answer on first go and even then keep searching for it expecting more and more fun to evolve.......and you never go unhappy.

Again what i'm up with these destiny assigned engineers comes like...

They really can provide you with the most required info in some quickest
valuble minutes.......no matter if he knows even a shit about it or not....
or rather and practically there's nothing an engineer doesn't know
"devoted to net-pro-paul"

Then no matter what's the field; an engineer can still do spectroscopy.....and yes form stories of emails

And yes we make you laugh.........of nothing u see.....isn't it!!
"u must be laughing either 'at the oneliner' or 'at yourself for reading these many
mails just for the same oneliner'......ha ha ha ha!!

the law of engineering says,
"if you don't know it...confuse the one who dared asked you"

don't know.........is that even a word??

naaaaah




coming up soon : the Passport story